I haven’t hidden my complaints about working very well. Working full time this year has been really hard on me and . . . well, just me. Ava loves school and never seems to miss being at home while she’s there. Sometimes on our longer breaks from school she asks if she can go back to school. She never cries about going to school and often wants to stay longer when I come to pick her up.
I, on the other hand, miss her terribly and I can’t seem to get everything done that should be done. I don’t cook as often as I would like, I rarely clean, I resent things that take up my time unless it’s with people we care about, and I’m just sad I don’t get to do all the things with Ava other moms get to do all the time- story time, swimming, classes at the rec center, yoga with mom, and on and on. Sure we have the weekends, but there are things we have to do on the weekends and they end up feeling very rushed. I am sooooo lucky to have the summer off, but still, I want more time. This is the only time in Ava’s life at home that she isn’t required by law to go to school, and we’re sending her to school anyway. This is the only time we could do all of those wonderful things everyday of the year, not just in the summer.
It’s purely selfish, but I would love to be able to spend even more time with Ava and I would love to feel like I had enough time to do that AND take care of things around the house. (Nathan does a lot, but he has even less time getting home from work at 6:30pm and little time off.)
So now Ava and I have a week off from school and we will treasure each day while balancing fun things and catching up on life (doctor’s appointments, vet appointments, car repair, and dental work).
Guess I just needed to whine a little bit today. I know we are very fortunate to have everything we do, including our jobs, but more than anything, I want to spend time doing fun things with my family. I’m sure I’m not alone there 🙂
(**I know have a choice to work or not to work, but for several reasons, it is better for our family that I work right now. Most days my attitude is okay about it. Once again, I am so happy I have such great students and co-workers who make my time at work a lot of fun.)