Guilty mom feelings

So, we’re in the midst of a move and I’ve been quite distracted lately. Our new house won’t be ready for 6 months, and we have to find a place to rent temporarily; the new place is brand new, so we have to decide what we want to include as they build it; and we had to sell our place, which turned out to be easier than we thought, but not easy. Ava’s been awesome through it all.

Tonight we checked out some very old (1970’s) videos from the library that told the tales of Pinocchio and Cinderella. I love how Ava is mesmerized by totally bad videos.I got the videos to entertain her while we pack this weekend. We have a lot of family and friends who have offered to watch her and I know in the next few weeks we will take full advantage of that, but I don’t want to burn them out too early.

I haven’t taken a picture of Ava for at least two weeks (I’m still down a camera), haven’t written in the journal I keep for her, haven’t practiced writing or done any crafts with her lately, haven’t gone anywhere exciting as a family, and yet, she is as happy as can be. No complaints so far. She can entertain herself with any ordinary household item. Her toys have been packed away for weeks as well as her art supplies. She barely notices we’re going through a major life transition.

I took her to look at a model of our new place and she wanted the small room with the small walk-in closet. She and I both could imagine the fun she would have in her closet. I used to set up classrooms, alters, and clubhouses in my closet. I’m so excited for her to have a fun closet to play in.

We’re taking it one day at a time here, but things are moving quickly and soon we will be living 10 miles away from here in a much cheaper house. We plan to rent a place in central Boulder for the summer so we can give this town a proper good-bye. We’ll definitely miss it here.

I hope Ava is as forgiving as she seems and I’m not scarring her for life with this neglect I’m putting her through. I just can’t wait until we can relax and enjoy our lives again.

4 Responses to “Guilty mom feelings”

  1. Courtney Says:

    Oh how I do feel bad for Ava — 2 incredibly creative and entertaining parents who love her immensly — a wonderful school — an imagination that allows her to have fun with nothing. She must really be struggling right now:)
    Your doing a great job!

  2. Myrna Says:

    Dea Diana and Nathan,

    Ava is so loved I’m sure she doesn’t know this should be a traumatic time in her life. She will get to visit all these friends and families while you are busy packing things away. She will get to watch all those videos and probably even get to pack some things too. She is such a happy go lucky child this will NOT affect her. She has the best parents ever and that is really all one needs. I’m sure she is looking at it as an adventure, especially with the large walk in closet (I did have to laugh at that)!!

    Love you,
    Myrna

  3. Joyce Mina Says:

    Christian was the same age that Ava is now when we moved from California to Colorado. We told him that we were starting on a new adventure and made a journal for him to draw / write in about things he’d be doing as he traveled along. When we finally moved into our home, we unpacked his toys that had been in storage for several months and it was just like Christmas! He had the best time with his “old” toys, books and stuff. At least your timing is great — you’ll have a lot of time to spend together since you’ll be on break from school. ENJOY the summer and have fun!
    ***joyce mina

  4. Emma Says:

    Ohhh! Wow poor Ava but at least she Has A BUNCH of people who completely ADORE her a awesome school that I wish I could go to. And as little cousin who copies her every move thats got to be hard for her!

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